It's nearly 3 in the morning but i'm still in front of the comp..well,actually i slept early w/o even a msg sent to Wan.I woke up & the first thin' i remember was Wan.Haiz..been thinkin' a lot about him..I dunno why..But he has not been msgin me for 2 days..How's dat feel? Ressstless!!So then again, i msg him at 2.30am..for God knows reason why..I dun care whether if he's sleepin or on his way back home from his show..just wanted to let him know dat i am thinkin abt him..I'm trying not to break down at least on the outside cos i feel dat 20% of my heart had been shattered inside. I went out with my mom(surprisingly) to Tekka cos she wanted to get her thing..but eventually I shopped for my clothes..haha..it's kindda funny cos the last time i went there was pri scool days..and i didn't even stepped into the market before..So it was my first time goin there..Weird..to be a Singaporean and not goin to such kind of places..And it's been quite some time since i last ate a tasty Thosai Masala..We take-away the food..Luckily,the food was tasty and fulfilling or else..it would be a waste of time carrying it home.. I really hope he would msg me later this morning..Even he had been busy,can't he spare of his time even for a minute to msg me?I know very well,things are no more the same between us now..Even if u tell me u still love me but i know..I can feel it.I really feel like crying now.Is it really to0 late for me to try again?I know i have been crying a lot and like u said,crying won't solve the prob.It's true but what else can i do?I break down so0o easily and no matter how much i've tried to solve the prob..The prob will still be there.I'm really hoping we could be back like we used to..I've tried to put my past away..far away from me..Why can't you do the same too?It's like there is a 20% of empty space inside me waiting to be filled with love and care again. I know it' pointless for me to write down those stuff cos you have hardly any access to the net.But if one day you were to read my blog,hope dat at least u will know how i felt at this very moment.
